readings to be done [3/3]
DEVIANCE: 14, 1 LECTURE
SCIENCE TECH SOC: 15
GLOBALIZATION: 10, 1 LECTURE
PUBLIC MANAGEMENT: 7 + CUBAN MISSILE CRISIS
CLIMATE CHANGE: 3 ONLINE LECTURES
ADV
OTHER STUFFS:
- Deviance's research + term paper
- Globalization's movie review
- Public management's movie review
- Intro to advertising's report + presentation
- Science and tech's term paper
- Science and tech's presentation
- Science and tech's endnote report
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readings to be done [10/3]
SCIENCE TECH SOC: 11
GLOBALIZATION: 9
PUBLIC MANAGEMENT: 7 + CUBAN MISSILE CRISIS
CLIMATE CHANGE: 3 ONLINE LECTURES
OTHER STUFFS:
- Deviance's research + term paper
- Globalization's movie review
- Intro to advertising's report + presentation
- Science and tech's term paper
- Science and tech's presentation
- Science and tech's endnote report
this week:
Deviance: (+3)
- noorman abdullah's constructions of drug prob, russel jung, chan suet kay
STS: (+3)
- bijker & law, pinch & bijker, bruno latour
Globalization: (+3)
- calhoun-cosmopolitanism-nationalism, sen amartya democracy as universal value, msteger's ideologies of glob
Public management: (+2)
- Theory of gvt red tape, perception of red tape constrain IT innovativeness
Climate change: (+1 online lecture)
one more lecture to the frayyy
Intro to adv:
how glad am I that there is no readings for this mod?
Friday, February 28, 2014
Wednesday, February 26, 2014
Tuesday, February 18, 2014
Some days I get pissed, some days I get mad.
I wonder WHY THE FUCK am I letting myself down this way.
When was the first time I swear I'm going to move out ASAP?
Like what, 14? And this year I'm turning 21 already and my bank account hovers little more than 4k???? FML. Why am I doing this to myself?
It's either I'm neutral or I hate my existence in here.
The only time I'm welcomed is when I'm contributing, or I'm doing housework.
Nobody appreciates my presence.
No, they don't like it when I try to cheer things up. When I try to be involved. When I try to be concerned about them.
Well then that's it.
If you don't cherish me, I won't be a fucking eyesore to you, would I?
I'm not so thick-skinned or patient.
My patience is OUT. I'm OUT.
If you hate me, I'll make sure you will never see me.
And, one day, I'll make sure you will never ever fucking see me.
Not even when you want to.
Although I doubt you want to.
Guess what, you can't but admit that I'm the most independent and capable of you lot.
Sure, I don't hanker after rich guys. I don't fucking take the easy way out.
I prefer to rely on the substance in me.
I don't fucking build my self-worth on the size of the bank account of my husband.
That, you can't deny.
So what if your IQ is higher than mine (which is BY THE WAY, unproven)? Your EQ by any standard is lower. So is your independence, capability - compared to at my age or at present time, by any comparison means.
I don't flaunt it in your face, do I?
Fuck you, learn humility.
I wonder WHY THE FUCK am I letting myself down this way.
When was the first time I swear I'm going to move out ASAP?
Like what, 14? And this year I'm turning 21 already and my bank account hovers little more than 4k???? FML. Why am I doing this to myself?
It's either I'm neutral or I hate my existence in here.
The only time I'm welcomed is when I'm contributing, or I'm doing housework.
Nobody appreciates my presence.
No, they don't like it when I try to cheer things up. When I try to be involved. When I try to be concerned about them.
Well then that's it.
If you don't cherish me, I won't be a fucking eyesore to you, would I?
I'm not so thick-skinned or patient.
My patience is OUT. I'm OUT.
If you hate me, I'll make sure you will never see me.
And, one day, I'll make sure you will never ever fucking see me.
Not even when you want to.
Although I doubt you want to.
Guess what, you can't but admit that I'm the most independent and capable of you lot.
Sure, I don't hanker after rich guys. I don't fucking take the easy way out.
I prefer to rely on the substance in me.
I don't fucking build my self-worth on the size of the bank account of my husband.
That, you can't deny.
So what if your IQ is higher than mine (which is BY THE WAY, unproven)? Your EQ by any standard is lower. So is your independence, capability - compared to at my age or at present time, by any comparison means.
I don't flaunt it in your face, do I?
Fuck you, learn humility.
Wednesday, February 12, 2014
Monday, January 27, 2014
Tuesday, January 14, 2014
Sometimes, the full weight of the reality sinks in too deeply
and I realize it for a little while
but I push it away
thinking, 'if I don't think about it, it will go away'
True,
till the next time it comes again.
when will I be free?
the years that have gone by are the years that I've lost and never getting back.
it's like.
there's no more of anything anymore.
I wish I didn't care. At least it wouldn't hurt if it didn't matter to me.
But sometimes, the things you are most hung up about,
are the ones that deserve the least attention from you.
You know what I mean?
It just sucks.
I call it emotional abuse. And every single fucking day, I just wake up to this.
Will I get stronger or will I break?
Past experience tells me I won't get stronger, but I won't break either.
How many years have this been?
Ignoring, forgetting. It's okay. It will change. Things will get better.
Sometimes, I wish I am physically abused instead.
At least, I'll fight back. I would know clearly that's my line of action.
But no, this is worse. You don't know what to do,
and you can't deal with it. You just suck it up and smile.
and I realize it for a little while
but I push it away
thinking, 'if I don't think about it, it will go away'
True,
till the next time it comes again.
when will I be free?
the years that have gone by are the years that I've lost and never getting back.
it's like.
there's no more of anything anymore.
I wish I didn't care. At least it wouldn't hurt if it didn't matter to me.
But sometimes, the things you are most hung up about,
are the ones that deserve the least attention from you.
You know what I mean?
It just sucks.
I call it emotional abuse. And every single fucking day, I just wake up to this.
Will I get stronger or will I break?
Past experience tells me I won't get stronger, but I won't break either.
How many years have this been?
Ignoring, forgetting. It's okay. It will change. Things will get better.
Sometimes, I wish I am physically abused instead.
At least, I'll fight back. I would know clearly that's my line of action.
But no, this is worse. You don't know what to do,
and you can't deal with it. You just suck it up and smile.
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