１。有时候我觉得我是幸福的。幸福，对一个女人来说无味就是她生命中最重要的两个男人的关心。我知道。不合规矩。一向追求女性权主义的我 怎么把快乐的泉源定义在男人身上？

２。上帝嘲笑着渺小的我们　控制着命运与所谓的机缘巧合　甚至掌控了我们抗不抗命的人物性格。信不信由你。　生命其实由不得自己，很多时候都是背着委屈在做事。

your life is fucking important
And my life is not
My time is yours to spend and waste and fritter away

I say FUCK YOU

Sometimes, I can't wait to fucking die and see how all of you realize how much you take me for granted
And then I will think, your tears won't be because you lost someone precious to you but because you lost a slave.

I wish I have more courage. I only wish. Then I might.

possibly the most serious bout of lack of appetite ever.
telling you, it really sucks.
it's no longer an issue of getting fat/chubby/heavier
but it's more of this deep repulsion for food in itself, not the effects it has on me.
i'm pretty convinced I can survive without any food. maybe with the exception of ice-cream and water.
maybe work is taking a toll on me. life is taking a toll on me.
i don't want to do  a n y t h i n g.
just lie in the middle of bed and stare at the ceiling.
feeling alone, but not lonely.
i need that sanity back.
that sanity of privacy, the allowance for preference.
that's what.
i just don't feel like eating. maybe i'll just fade away - that's how things happen, right?
overthinking kills.
it kills softly, without a trace.
i just want to fade away sometimes.
and it won't matter, because none of us ever did.

so many things, so little time

I think I've officially chewed off more than I can bite.

Let's see what are the things on my platter:

1. OR job.
2. S. blog
3. HSSX
4. A's 21st
5. K's wedding
6. Bali trip planning

I always get so paranoid when I take the plane.