Too much advice on the internet

The best advice is always not to think too much, which is what I will do.
So many songs bring back different memories. It's probably a good idea to just keep listening to Chopin, Bach, Yiruma and Kitaro - oh not Kitaro too.

Currently listening to my whole playlist anyway,
刚好　我们拥有彼此寻找的好
可惜不太凑巧　在错的时候情路上遇到
若不是　不忍心看你两难中煎熬
不然我绝不肯这样眼睁睁　看你重回他怀抱
嘴角勉强撑起了笑　也要让你看到最后一丝的骄傲
因为你说说到做到　提的起放的下才有男人的味道
我不是不知道没有你的日子会有多么煎熬
就算是我傻的可笑　失去当成得到
只要能够对你好我都会做到

Not very productive again, but at least I am done with studying stats midterms. Left with 2001 midterms to study. Oh god. Another mountain to climb... 

You~~~ need to come back soon. 

A tiring day, but my mind feels so refreshed.
Today is a day I let my mind go to rest, and let my heart decide where to walk.
It has been long.

21 weeks ahead, I don't feel anything at all.

Sometimes, I scare myself.

Plug in, the world's gone

I think
I like techno more than I think.
Especially at high volume.

If anything.

I don't know why I keep starting my sentence with "if anything" but. Oh whatever.

I feel like an outsider in my house.

Fucking hell, why am I so "Asian". 

I have to blame it on my Asian roots.

What kind of stupid logic is this:

1. Chasing me out of my room, WITHOUT MY PERMISSION may I emphasise, and into one-third of a room - I don't even have half of it, please. 

2. Now I have to share a room with a temperamental, constantly PMS-ing woman who cannot get used to my weird habits of sleeping at 3am (which honestly, then again not very weird by the standards of people of my age) - who does many little things which makes me feel like I shouldn't even be in that one-third space of the room. I give up exercising because there is not fucking space in the room. The whole place is so fucking squeezy I feel claustrophobic every single time I'm in here.

3. No allowance since I'm earning my own keep. Well I shall remain proud, stubborn and strong on this point. Which is damn sad if I were to compare with others but I shan't. 

4. I no longer have fucking space in the fridge. To that by the way, I will buy my own groceries. Reminder to self.

5. I don't have FUCKING SPACE. Fucking space. I need my space.

Reminder to self, 

Get out of the house from the first waking moment until 12mn and then drop dead on the bed, 

and repeat. 

Every single day until recess week is over.

Why do I stick around like a parasite? It's not as if I don't have enough money to get out there and get my own place, honestly. If I really want to, I can pack up all my stuff, which rightfully belong to me, bought by my own money - laptop, phone, and every single necessity which I need. I look around and I do realize that hardly anything is NOT bought by my own money anymore.

Why are you treating me like your employee? Why the FUCK? 

Why the fuck are you treating me like some beggar that you just picked off the streets?

I am fucking enraged and this by itself is an understatement.

Hello, I'm your daughter.

I'm not demanding for it because I'm fucking Asian and I think that I am not entitled to it. 
Ya ya ya, the house is yours. You have the right to put me in the storeroom if you want.
Which honestly, I think, according to the current slippery slope, 
where I should be in a few months' time.

I want to get out of this house asap.

Rest assured I'll make sure I grown my full-fledged wings, not to worry.

(Then again, Amie, haven't you been saying that since... what, you're 15?) 

Today.

Can I just agree with no one in particular that symptoms.com is one of the scariest websites? But it's fine. Scare me once, shame on you. Scare me twice, shame on me, right. Today is kinda worth celebrating because it is the first time in six weeks my gums haven't bled (while brushing)! *mini dance in the room* Hahaha. Okay. I was hoping for it to stop *soon* so that I can avoid a trip to the dentist. :< And after six weeks of waiting finally haha! I'm definitely a believer of let-it-heal-by-itself. Maybe I should really get braces because the trouble of brushing misaligned teeth is really annoying.

Today I also did a lot on my blog, giving it a new makeover because it is 3/4 through the year! Okay a bit of self-entertaining for changing the interface every 3 months (check, the last time I made any huge changes was in June). But page views spiked for the highest since the advent of my blog!!! Cheap thrill - it is at 764 page views today! And the day hasn't end yet (oh the days start at 9am and end at 8am the next day) - so essentially 764 page views is only for 10 hours. Usual page views only hovers at 300+ at tops. The highest I ever got was a few days ago at 534. Heh heh okay I probably lost you at the third sentence of this paragraph.

I will really go study and stop all these frivolous stuffs.

And you! 跑去哪里了？

Keeping check

What else do I need to complete before recess week ends
3002
Print 3002 questions and practise + study for 3002 midterms (1/10, 6/10)

2001
Study for 2001 midterms (3/10, 5/10) 

2005
Print the rest of 2005 notes  (1/10)
start on project 2 paper

ha0201
write notes for ha0201 L4, L5, L6, L7 (2/10)
answer think questions for ha0201 L1 L2 L3 (2/10)
start on essay

ha1004
write notes for ha1004 L2 L3 L4 L5 L6 L7 (2/10)
read textbook for ha1004 for W1 W2 W3 (2/10)
complete presentation for ha1004 (4/10)

cs8090
start on group project >_<

Talking to 'manda

Was therapeutic. It always is. That girl, I swear, has a knack at counselling or just talking to people and making me feel so at ease and keeps me in a happy mood. :) When I talk to her, I just understand myself more, and she helps me iron out my thoughts so nicely without even attempting at all. Just being there, helps. I guess life is being really good to me, giving me all these wonderful people. #feelingblessed